Where is my Istanbul

In the resisting wall embroideries of Hagia Sophia,
or in its mysterious tombs

In the memory of years,
in the mystic scent of a cup of coffee
sipped at the Markiz

In the specks of dust that
arrive on the Seven Hills
with the burden of the past
and make love to the sunset

In the lace worked Gothic mosques,
in the domes of Orthodox churches

In the rainbow colored skirt folds
of the Galata whirling dervishes,
embracing the Golden Horn

In a wish made by the light
of a candle lit at St. Anthony’s

In the aged wine scent beneath the Historic Peninsula Wall,
where for centuries every newcomer
has been made to say “cheers”

In the Judas tree colored acoustic melodies
of Hagia Irene and the Süleymaniye

In the Gülhane garden
where Theodora and Hürrem swept by

In the mastika liqueur that
left the guild and spread across the whole peninsula,
too restless to stand still, belly dancing away

In the brass door knockers asking,
“Are you from inside the Historic Peninsula Walls, or from outside?”

Sometimes in the manner of a lead singer
in the light of a nightclub,
its eyelashes heavy

In the fallen pole of a trolleybus
on the Şişhane hill
on a rainy day

In the blazing fire of the Patrona Halil Hamam,
still smelling of rebellion

In the smile of the concubine at Seraglio Point,
watching the islands through
the cries of the Harem

In the wooden mansion of Edirnekapı,
pine shaded and fragrant with honeysuckle,
where Aunt Eleni lives with her cats

In the manuscripts cooling
in the shade of the Old Booksellers’ plane tree,
noting down the past and memories

At Galataport, which has taken over the watch,
and at its neighbour across the water,
the Spice Bazaar, with its Turkish delight treat.

In the tea of serenity,
mingled into the garden of the Green House,
which Gülersoy touched
and made worth sharing

In Sulukule and the Peninsula’s walls moats,
where Yeşilçam, the old Turkish film industry,
once ran wild

In the treasure the Grand Bazaar at Beyazıt
keeps hidden under its pillow

In the bread of the Albanian meatball shop in Balat,
gazing over the bay

In the pigeon nests of the Historic Peninsula Walls’ gates,
Silivrikapı, Edirnekapı, Mevlanakapı,
lined up by the sunrise

In the fire tower of the Darülfünun,
at which the Galata Tower winks

In the Alemdar quarter,
where a Roman coppersmith’s synagogue
and the sash of the Virgin Mary
blend into the call to prayer

In the graveyard silence
under the great plane trees of Eyüp Sultan

In the summit of the Column of Constantine,
whose majesty seems drawn from Apollo,
as from a sacred relic

In the eternal hideaway that
Tevfik Fikret painted behind the mists at Aşiyan

In Safiye Ayla’s ghazal,
stretching from Fener to Dolapdere

In the cobblestones,
awaiting the delicate sound
of heels along the narrow streets

In the purple-marble sarcophagi,
withdrawn into the garden of the Archaeology Museum

In the dungeons of the Fortress of the Seven Towers,
of a lover screaming into the darkness

In the rustle of the porters’ baskets
carrying drunks at dawn,
or the market load

In the boza cry through the streets
of a tenor hidden in the dead of night

In the sip by sip clear water purity
that the water carriers brought by donkey

In the whirling Semah turns
that read a person through the rare streets,
a gift of the cosmos

In a sip of Vefa boza,
seated at the heart of history
on a winter day

In the geranium scent blooming in every color
on the wicker latticed bay windows

In the tray of clotted cream yogurt carried
on shoulders all day,
street by street

In Pierre Loti, who still waits
in Eyüp for the love of Aziyade

In the minaret of the Fatih Mosque,
at peace with the Church of the Holy Apostles

In Medusa’s gaze among
the tearful columns of the Basilica Cistern,
sunk into the earth

In the crystal water flowing
from the holy springs,
or in Helvacı Baba’s votive sweets

In the scent of purple acacia,
blown in from the distant Princes’ Islands
and left hanging on the soul

In the Flower Passage,
right in the middle of Independence Avenue,
drunk on the accordion’s melody

In Damcıoğlu’s “hazelnut worm” cantos,
spreading from Direklerarası to Saraçhane

In the bridal-veil vines that
cover everything like silver wire
from the top of Telli Baba Hill

In the dawn cry of the seagulls
that have glided through the air for generations

In the thrashing of a horse mackerel
in a little fishing boat,
whispering,
“Don’t worry, I’m still here”

In the Tepebaşı streets of Pera,
mingled into a porcelain teapot

In the farewell longing of Sirkeci Station,
with a glass of wine

In the flag race of
thousand year old footprints,
still walking, still carrying history,
even when concrete is raised over them

In the signature of a book in every tongue,
inked onto the Sublime Porte slope

In the waves of the Golden Horn at sunset,
which fit no painting and no photograph

In the breath-race of Zürefa Hill,
stirred by the Karaköy quay wind

In the Dolmabahçe symphony of trees
swaying, saying,
“It was granted to me too to sway on your shores”

In the gardens and pavements,
where every flower suits it,
where a different fragrance comes

At the center of the world,
marked by Sinan
with the green marble of Şehzadebaşı

In the chocolate taste of a profiterole eaten
on a winter evening
after the Emek Cinema or the Şan Theatre

In the mosaic conversation
that Saint Savior of Chora,
patiently awaiting Judgment Day,
left in trust to Kariye

In the Golden Horn taverns
that still hum with oud and saz

In that unique din composed together
by bells and hymns

In the Palace of the Porphyrogenitus,
which adorned the peninsula in blue with its tile kilns

In the lavender-scented trousseaus of Mahmutpaşa Hill,
stretching down to Sirkeci

In the bright white marbles
of the Grand Post Office,
cool to sit by in the summer heat

In the deep therapy of Saint Therapon,
witness of history on the Gülhane wall,
calling to people

In your patience,
which washes itself in history
when everyone withdraws,
and readies itself for the morning

In the patterns plastered
with thousands of glances and words,
clear only to those who love

You are there, I know
You are there, I know
I left you what only I know,
and what only you know:
my whisper,
my dust,
my gaze,
my touch,
my prayers that have no language
Thank you for accepting, Istanbul.

written by Aşur Horoz

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